Energized

I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of being angry.
I'm tired of regret.
I'm tired of denial.
I'm tired of fatigue.
I'm tired of falling.
I'm tired of the world spinning.
I'm tired of intolerance.
I'm tired of judgements.
I'm tired of selfishness.
I'm tired of miscommunications.
I'm tired of us.
I'm tired of this conversation.
So maybe it's time we consider other options.
We've already had our trial seperation.
And now...
I'm tired of the false hope we've given ourselves to believe we could fix things by avoiding them.
I'm tired of disappointment.
I'm tired of not being able to count on you.
I'm tired of instability.
I'm tired of this.
This conversation.
This land of middle-ground.
I'm ready to move on...
be it backwards or forwards.
So when I call you next...
Answer.
It will be the last time you see my number on your caller ID.
It will be the last time I refer to you affectionately.
It will be the last time I lie to you.
Because it will be the last time I lie to myself.
After that call...
Everything will be over.
And I will no longer be tired.