The Beginning
Hey there!
Hola.
Welcome.
Hi.
Okay, so truth moment? I'm a bit nervous (I'm sure you couldn't tell). Starting something new is always so exciting. Until you actually go to start it. Then it somehow morphs into that daunting, terrifying, first text that you type 12 times, then delete, before finally sending a simple, "Hey." There's so much you want to say, but nothing seems quite right. And try as you might you can't find a beginning that rises above merely adequate. That's about where I am. So now that that's out of the way, let's chat.
Full disclosure: this isn't my first blog...well, technically anyway. Back in January of 2009 a friend of mine suggested I start a tumblr. Now, this was back in the days where no one really knew what tumblr was. So, somewhat apprehensively, I did. To be honest, I don't even remember what my first url was. But by that Spring, it had been changed to what it remains today: theinnerkat--Kat's Inner Monologue. And being a tumblog rather than a dedicated word blog, it basically was just that. My blog became me, on "paper." Looking back, I'm so grateful for that blog. Not only was it an amazing outlet for me during my coming of age, but having that incredibly clear window through which to see my own transformation and development into the woman I chose to become is truly a gift. You see, journals never worked for me. I can't pinpoint exactly why, because I'm totally the kind of person who would journal. But they never stuck. Blogging though--it's like it was always there when I needed it, without requirement or expectation. And before Facebook had timelines, I would spend my internet scrolling hours catching up on my tumblr Dashboard. That's right, I read every single post by every single person I followed. Because before tumblr was only about memes, it was about community.
I say all of that to say, this isn't my first rodeo--but it is my first time riding this particular bull. With that being said, I want to set up some expectations for what this blog will be. A sort of vision statement (aka warning), if you will. So here we go. *Ahem*
Content quality is super important to me, so you will not read about the Kardashians' latest shenanigans or Drake's latest music video. This may fall into the category of "lifestyle" blog, but not "lifestyles of the rich & famous."
I'm a big thinker, so I can assure you there will be lots of ideology talk here. But not in a pretentious, "discuss for discussion's sake," way. More in a "this is how I feel about the way this particular situation is affecting my community at large and I need a safe soundboard to attempt to clear up my thoughts before I implode," kind of way.
As a lifelong reader and learner, I don't always use complete sentences, but sometimes I use run-ons. I'm fully aware of my deviation from formal grammatical standards. And I'm totally okay with that. I hope you can be too.
There will only be truth here. Prose, theory, ideology discussion, and opinions--but no fiction or falsehood. This will not be that forum.
Note to Reader (and Self): I am officially releasing myself from any further expectations in this space. While I do desire for someone to find inspiration or encouragement in the pages/posts to come, I don't need the whole world to. And I don't believe that being bound by pretense or expectations will help anyone get anything good from this experience--including myself. My hope here is that with some divine intervention, a bit of consistency, and a dash of perspective, just maybe the resulting storyboard will offer a tale worth telling. But this is not an obligation; it's a journey. One that I truly believe will be worth the ride.
Thanks for tagging along,
<3 K. Marie