Often, I feel like a broken record. Skipping, and often unable to move forward at the planned & expected intervals.

Or white board. Leaving smudges behind and never really being able to keep it moving or let anything go away.

Or piece of chalk. Still functional for awhile, but constantly falling out of hands not able to have impact for any real amount of time without a strained & hyper-forced grip.

Or office chair. Bending underneath even slight weights and struggling to stay elevated, move around a room, or even smaller spaces reliably.

And I don’t think there is really a repair for any of those things. I mean, you could decide to get your penny’s worth & keep them. But repairing them isn’t really feasible. Ultimately you have to decide to move on from them and replace, upgrade, or neither.

But ultimately what is my current refrain? “I am so tired and I just don’t know.”

So I leave myself with the following questions:

1. What if I was brave enough to stop chasing after things that required my exhaustion?

2. What if I was bold enough to truly choose individuals & villages over organizations & institutions?

3. What if I was daring enough to do less?

4. What if I behaved as if I loved myself?

And let’s see where we can go from here.